Monday, July 12, 2010

Ch-ch-changes

I currently feel like I'm teetering on a very fine line...one side of it is success and happiness and confidence.. and the other is fear and failure and depression. It wouldn't take much to go to either side...

Maybe this is what everyone feels like? Or maybe not... most sane people probably seek stability, comfort, and security. I can't seem to be happy if things get routine.


Still love my apartment. Sort of like my job... but still love the places it could take me (Ireland!!). Still love Jesse... (and still don't know why.)

Currently not so fond of my roommate. For deciding to just now tell me she is moving out and BUYING A HOUSE. And having the nerve to say she decided to do so last week...when she clearly knew all along.
BUT. This is probably a good thing...since we ended up not getting along so well. Not to say she was unfriendly...but we didn't quite click. And I'd like to live with someone who I do click with.
Just have to find this person within the next month and a half.

Most of what has been consuming my life though, in the last two weeks is getting rid of my car and taking public transportation! This has been very life changing. And I am not being overdramatic in saying that. It makes me think about a lot...about me..about other people..politics..racism...St. Louis. It's nice to have this new focus.

Time for bed..but more to come.