Ch-ch-changes

I currently feel like I'm teetering on a very fine line...one side of it is success and happiness and confidence.. and the other is fear and failure and depression. It wouldn't take much to go to either side...

Maybe this is what everyone feels like? Or maybe not... most sane people probably seek stability, comfort, and security. I can't seem to be happy if things get routine.


Still love my apartment. Sort of like my job... but still love the places it could take me (Ireland!!). Still love Jesse... (and still don't know why.)

Currently not so fond of my roommate. For deciding to just now tell me she is moving out and BUYING A HOUSE. And having the nerve to say she decided to do so last week...when she clearly knew all along.
BUT. This is probably a good thing...since we ended up not getting along so well. Not to say she was unfriendly...but we didn't quite click. And I'd like to live with someone who I do click with.
Just have to find this person within the next month and a half.

Most of what has been consuming my life though, in the last two weeks is getting rid of my car and taking public transportation! This has been very life changing. And I am not being overdramatic in saying that. It makes me think about a lot...about me..about other people..politics..racism...St. Louis. It's nice to have this new focus.

Time for bed..but more to come.

Ahhh Life is Good!

I'd be lying if I said I didn't enjoy a cigarette with my coffee in the morning. And not feeling guilty about what I choose to do and who with!

Lately things are pretty good. Had a male-related disastrous episode there last weekend, but things have calmed down and I have regained my sanity for the moment.

I absolutely am in love with where I live. I love the park across the street, I love the red brick houses, I love the people, I love the lesbians that hang out here, I love the uneven sidewalks, and the ambulances at night...I love the creaky wooden floors of my apartment, I love my new roommate, I love my sunny bathroom, and I love that I did exactly what I wanted to do!

Things are on the up and up...and I'm simply content.


I'm playing hookey today and I already had a morning visitor, french toast at Mokabe's, and I plan on taking a jog in the park, going to the recycling center, maybe getting a tan and getting my haircut, and mayyybbeee organizing all my stuff.

Hopefully going out tonight too!!

I'm Leaving

I'm movin' out...tomorrow!

Mostly feeling happy and excited with a few other less positive emotions thrown in there too.

I had a dream last night that i was on a dock surrounded by whales and dolphins that wanted to eat me.

"We Smoke, Fuck Off"

I want this perfume so bad right now!!!

It's only noon and i've been up for four hours.

I've been surfing the net for most of that time.

Had a fabulous evening last night consisting of drunken friends, delicious indian food, and hookah!


Dreaming of having great looks like these....

How I'd Like to Dress and Things I Like to Look At

Fist pumping tonight!

Eau My!

If you know me, you know I have a perfume obsession.

I read about perfumes for fun on Basenotes; I spend atleast 30 minutes in Sephora sniffing and asking for samples anytime I'm at the mall; and I've been to known to impulse buy more bottles of perfume than I will ever need via ebay or amazon.

In the last two months, I have bought a full bottle of Lacoste Pour Femme, LUSH's Honey I Washed the Kids solid perfume, ten sample vials of Delices de Cartier, and samples of Kiehl's Original Musk, Fresh Cannabis Santal, Fresh Fig Apricot, Payard Pistachio Ganache, L'Artisan Parfumeur Safran Troublant, L'Artisan Parfumeur Jour de Fete; and a large decant of Schiapparelli Pinkenz Litchi Almond Arrogance mix.

(My favorites are the Lacoste, LUSH, and Fig Apricot)

I think I need to take a break for awhile from my perfume spending spree.... but when I can I want to sample several different fragrances from Demeter Fragrance Library:


Demeter Condensed Milk
Demeter Holy Water
Demeter Paperback
Demeter Play-Doh
Demeter Salt Air
Demeter Thunderstorm